and so that's how everything goes...cant say i'm pleased with my results, not when i didn't deserve them, and especially when i know i could have done better if i had even bothered to try. but i cant change a single bit of it now so i'm just gonna have to move on with it and wish for the best. though i know that i'll always be dissapointed with myself. so much for new resolutions each time something new happens. i just cant focus myself can i? i really wish i was different, be someone different, be someone who can truly believe in something. and do her best to get what she wants and not be so shy and scared and always hiding from people. cos i'm just so so tired of it all. i just really am. i never dare to tell people the truth and i dont even know why. i guess a lack of childhood friendship made me this way. and too many experiences of having friends going away without even a single warning or goodbye. i'm too scared to make a real and lasting friendship for fear of it all going away one day. i'm a huge liar. and i've done too many wrong things in and with my life. and i want to make something right for me for once. just once would be enough.
i'm a big wallower of self pity arent i? another reason to hate myself...
wish you were gone. then i wouldnt have to see you anymore when i look in the mirror. and then i would be free...
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About Me.
hazwany
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Wishlist.
Happiness
ipod nano
a new radio
new clothes, bags and shoes :p
to lose most of my insecurities