i think nobody wants to talk to me. either that or i'm just being paranoid. i mean, ok, i talk to people everyday but somehow the conversations are just sooo stagnant. every conversation is the same. same tone. same words. same style. same people. same everything. as if its done without any feelings. and i'm just so scared of it. scared of the way i feel. scared of the way i think i make other people feel. scared of losing what i have already. scared of losing my friends. scared of losing my sanity. just feeling scared of everything. and it doesn't stop. it just goes on and on and on. and i don't know how to say it. how to express it. so i keep quiet. and silence myself up. and then everything gets worse. everything starts all over again. and yet nobody knows what i feel inside. nobody bothers to know. they see the smile that i paste on my face everytime and they take it for what it is. they see the facade that i use to cover myself up and they think that's who i am. and i'm so tired of all of it.
i think i better stop now and not bother anyone anymore with my problems. not like anyone will care anyway.
and forget about all i've said. i'm just being paranoid. don't bother bout me. i'll feel worse if you do. so forget it.
i think i better stop now.
bye. to anyone who cares.
which is nobody.
don't bother bout me.
i don't care.
anymore.
inilah aku
8:45 pm
About Me.
hazwany
17121987
female obviously
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Wishlist.
Happiness
ipod nano
a new radio
new clothes, bags and shoes :p
to lose most of my insecurities