I seriously don't know what i'm doing. and why i'm doing it. heck, i don't even know myself anymore. somehow it seems like every little thing that has kept me sane last time has been taken away from me time and time again. dikir, tarian, even my frens, their all gone now. i'm living a life of total hypocrisy and i don't know what i'm doing in it. and why i'm still going on with it. ok, there's the fact that i'm scared of hurting myself and that comitting suicide is totally against my religion but seriously, sometimes i jus wonder whats the use of living in a world that's a lie unto itself. where nobody is true to you and where there's absolutely nobody to help you or even talk to you. and some people think i'm lucky for being able to do well without studying. tell u the truth, i rather wished i didnt. i don't need that sort of luck if you ask me. not when it only brings me sadness. i'd rather like to be able to believe in myself and trust myself. no use living in this world without those two. really.
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10:44 pm
About Me.
hazwany
17121987
female obviously
HGS.TKGS.MJC.NUS
penggiat seni melayu, terutamanya dikir barat dan tarian
Wishlist.
Happiness
ipod nano
a new radio
new clothes, bags and shoes :p
to lose most of my insecurities